a post from car

hey guys! I'm way stoked about this blog. okay I'm gonna be straight up with you guys. life has kind of been nutz o buttz o for me. a lot of insane family changes. all of my siblings are going through tough situations and I swear it's just a non stop sob fest to pep talk fest over here. so my depression and anxiety has been at an all time high. plus it's been difficult watching all of you guys progress in some major ways (ex. marriage, careers, families etc) *DISCLAIMER: i can't even put into words how happy and proud I am of all of you and in no way am I trying to be a sob story I swear. But this blog is to update on the big and small events in our lives and this feels pretty major*

ANYWAY. I've been feeling stuck. in every way possible. I've been so focused on my family that I stopped taking care of myself. in all ways. health, spirituality and my mental health. literally all I would do is work, come home, sleep, wake up and cry hahaha like so rough. so one day I woke up and I said enough is enough. I said a pray and in it I received "make sacrifices and be obedient" so I took out my double piercings, downloaded my scripture app and bought a gym pass. making time for me and for the lord has made me happier than I've been in a long long time. of course my family is still suffering so I have hard days as well. but I know we all have hard hard days. but our hard days are a blessing from Heavenly Father. if we did not struggle and feel pain we would forget to praise the good days. the good days would blend together and become forgettable. I hope I'm making sense.

I guess what I'm saying is breathe through the hard days sisters. for a new and great day is coming. LOVE YOU ALL

-Carls